Practise what you preach

Why is it so difficult? I preach the benefits of equanimity to others, and then let others get me down. Why am I so susceptible to others' criticism? I do not feel I have done anything wrong, and yet I feel victimised. Still, I know that allowing myself to feel victimised is giving others permission to do so. I have made a judgment I know to be right...why is it so difficult to be proud of my decision?

I know nothing good in this world comes easy, but does it have to be this difficult? Sometimes I wonder...

Sabbe sattā bhavantu sukhitattā!